It’s been a couple of months now since I updated this blog last and I realized that I haven’t actually given you guys the reason as to why I suddenly jumped ship. That’s why I am writing this now so that hopefully I can clear my mind a little, you can get an understanding for where I’m at with it all and we can finally move on and get this blog up and running again like it once did.
I guess I should begin this post with both an apology as well as an explanation.
An apology because I just bailed suddenly after tour. One day without a word I just quit updating. You see, after tour ended I got really depressed and hung up on what I was doing or I guess what I wasn’t doing. Don’t get me wrong, the tour was amazing but you get very used to a certain way of living and doing things after awhile. Being out and about in new places all the time, around new people and being behind the scenes of these shows was incredibly exciting and fun so you can imagine how big the contrast of getting back home and having to sit down in front of a computer for most of your day was. Especially after three long weeks on the road.
I began questioning a lot of things about my work and my work ethic which ended up with me eventually just quitting because I thought I wasn’t doing a good enough job at it. So many people did these things so much better than I was doing them. I was comparing myself to other Bloggers and YouTubers and It got to me. I ended up getting complacent and not doing anything at all because I got so hung up on the fact that I wasn’t good at what I was trying to do. The fact that much of what I had been doing wasn’t sustainable was also weighing on me.
The thing is though, I love this blog so much so the fact that I had abandoned it made me feel guilty and thus I avoided all your questions about it altogether.
Now however, I feel like I need to come clean. This blog was my safe space. My pet project if you will. A medium I loved using and experimenting with and now I want to revive it. I want to get it back and I want to make it better.
My plan going forward so far includes a weekly upload on the blog as well as keeping up with the videos every Saturday. I also started commissions back up so hopefully that’ll make for some fun content that I could potentially stream in the future. Even though it’s terrifying, I’ll do my best to get back to a place I can feel good about. Hopefully I can do that and hopefully you’ll all continue to support me going forward. It meant so much to see you all still frequenting the blog even when I wasn’t posting on it, so thank you all for your incredible kindness. It means so much.